Please Pray for Me and My Team

So its lunch time on Thursday... I am sorry that I did not write yesterday... I actually did and then lost networkd connection... so my whole post was lost! :-(

We go back in about 15 minutes to spend our last afternoon with the kids. We are having a Birthday Party for Jesus in light of the coming Holiday... plus all the Bible stories we have done this week has lead up to this BIG PARTY! We are inviting all the village children. So we will have the 40 orphanage kids and about 100 village kids! We are very excited. We will have cake and all the orphanage kids decorated with streamers and ballons already!

I am trying to enjoy this time with the kids... but I cannot explain my anxiety I have right now to leave these amazing children. I have even gotten so close to the older children. I thought in my life I have loved with my whole heart, but I have been so wrong. The love and affection I have for these kids is overwhelming. My heart is already breaking... I feel it in my chest. I have never been so sad I dont think. I pray to God to not let this kind of feeling mess up my whole day because I am dreading the goodbye. So please help me if you are up late and reading this. Please pray for me and my team to have a wonderful afternoon with these children and JUST TO FOCUS ON WHATS IMPORTANT... these kids are in love with the same God as I am. I need to relish in that and just learn from them and their joy. As for the goodbye's I know its going to be hard... part of me feels like maybe I wasnt cut out for this trip... but hopefully in God's grace I will get through it! I have a good team with me. I am strong... and I WILL COME BACK AND SEE THESE KIDS AGAIN. I hope some of you will join me next time.

In the meantime... I know you all have already given so much. However, my team bought a big screen tv and dvd player for the kids. So once I get home I am going to print out pictures and send clothes and DVD's... so if you have either DVD's or clothes you dont use any more please gather them up for me. Thank you so much for all your prayers and support already. I am truly blessed to have family and friends like you. These kids had the time of their lives this week and I am a changed woman!

Hopefully I will write more from Siem Reap (Anghor Wat) tomorrow! I love you and miss you all! God Bless!!!!
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